Welp, nothing like sudden and unexpected job loss to kick you in the ass and compel you to return to a blog that’s been collecting dust for more than a year.
Today, I lost my job of six and a half years. It was, at once, both shocking and unsurprising. I walked out of the bright, modern space for the last time today thinking everyone was in the same boat. It wasn’t until later that it hit me: the company isn’t shutting down, they just laid off half their staff. The truth is, I don’t know what their future holds. That’s no longer my concern. My future, which is no longer tied to there’s, is now my central focus.
So what does that have to do with minimalism? Well, I feel like I’ve been far more “aspiring” than “minimalist” over the past year. My consumption has increased. My desire for things has returned. The momentum to rid myself of everything that does not serve me has slowed to a crawl. I attribute some of this to my former job where I was inundated with shopping, and where it was my job to encourage consumption (albeit at a discount). Hypocritical, right?
The desire for more things also harkened the return of insecurity. I’m less comfortable in my own skin than I was when I started this journey. I worry more. My indecisive nature is heightened. I find myself retaining items “just in case” or out of guilt. While minimalism doesn’t necessitate ruthlessness, it does require trust. Trust in oneself and one’s decisions. I have yet to regret anything I’ve parted with and have no reason to believe I’ll regret what I donate going forward.
So, on the cusp of a new year, I find myself at an actual new beginning. I hope I can make the most of the time I have between now and my next venture. I’d like to be brave. Until then, I intend to keep up the positive habits I cultivated recently, and recommit myself to a lifestyle that inspired me to start this blog in the first place. And I recognize it’s not all about ridding yourself of things that no longer serve you, but also valuing what you choose to keep.
Today, I choose to keep my chin up.